Andrew...Our Miracle, Our Angel

When I was 4 months pregnant, we found out our unborn son would be born with congenital hydrocephalus (water on the brain). The outcome looked like he would never have a happy "Normal" life. The doctors said he would never walk, talk or do the things little boys do.

The first 2 years were rough, he had over 7 surgeries (4 being brain/skull surgeries). He was a fighter and always beat the odds and proved the doctors wrong! He walked and talked but most of all loved to sing, he could sing for hours... the sound of an Angel! He was amazing! We never gave up on Andrew... We smiled at his love for life and supported him through all his challenges.

Our life was going great! Our family was complete... Craig, Megan, Andrew and I were the "prefect" family. Then shortly after Andrew's 4th birthday, he got the flu. Suddenly with no warning, he aspirated on vomit and died shortly after. Our world changed that day!

My life was empty - Being Andrew's Mom was my idenity, I did everything for him... I was with him 24/7 and so not only did I lose my son but my life as well.

We do thank God for the 4 years with Andrew. Not a day goes by that he is not the first thing I think of when I get up and the last thing I think about when I go to bed.

His sister Megan is now 10 and still keeps me going. She is such a beautiful young lady and I see Andrew through her and their father's eyes. Andrew will always live though us.

Over 4 years later I sit here and wonder how I've made it through each day... Some days seem like FOREVER since I've touched him and other days the pain feels like I just lost him yesterday...

Not a day goes by that my heart does not ache to hold him! I wonder what it would be like to have all of my children safe and warm in bed at night.
I must trust someday I will be with Andrew again and see his smiling face but until then, he will live through me... ALWAYS and FOREVER...

A Life may last for just a moment....
but memories can make that moment last forever...